Crisis Center Recommends I Post Here?

Had a great day and night with non-dance friends and family yesterday and was actually involved in the conversations. Got to bed early and slept peacefully until the wee hours of the morning set in and once again, my mind wandered of to the days when everything was fine and I was with my inner group of friends. I missed those days so much that I am fighthing the urge to call one of them to say okay! I concede! Sundays are hard as these were the days we went out together as a group to a studio for social dance. No choreographies, no routines and musicality to worry aboout. I know I mustn't if I was to make sure that I do not end up with ex partner again.

Been paralyzed all day today as I try to find places closer to home to dance. I am also pissed that I can't do this in my own city because I will definitely run into them and I don't know how I'd react. It is inevitable though. It will happen.

Still trying to get an appointment with psychiatrist. They have not called back plus I discovered that the person I called was a snobbish ill-mannered psych (through word by mouth) so I may have to find someone else tomorrow. Anyhow, I am off to Disneyland with son for 3 days and that should help me too right?

I am writing to calm me down. It is a way for me to 'see' my feelings and a physical activity that stops me from pacing the house again. Thanks for listening.